// SALUTE TO MY COUSIN//

Salute to my cousin who despite of his miseries in life are still fighting in order for him to live and support his mother.

Salute to my cousin who loves her mother so much to the point he will do anything to make impossible things possible.

Salute to my cousin who never complains on the destiny given to him by Papa God.

Salute to my cousin who never fails to be a good, loving and responsible son 

Salute to my cousin for being a provider not only to his mother but also to his extended family.

Salute to my cousin for being such a hard worker.

I salute my cousin for being brave and strong.

We may not be closed or well bonded to know much of you but when I saw your effort and hardships to your mother and felt the pains you have in life, I became proud of you. I really don’t know where you get that courage you have right now to face the challenges that were given to you but still I honor and respect you.

 Loosing someone doesn’t mean it’s the end of our world, but loosing someone means another chapter of our lives.

Me, my mom, my sister, and the rest of my family supports you on the decision that you have made. We will assure you that no matter what happened we are still at your back to catch you when you fall.

Your mom is such a wonderful person though God made her suffer but for sure he has purposes why he did that. I would like to thank your mom for taking care of my son when he was still a baby, though she took care of him for a year but still for me and for us, it is a big help.

There would be a light after darkness.

// FORGIVE//

I’ve been judged, I’ve been degraded, I’ve been criticized, I’ve been scrutinized, I’ve been pulled down to hell by some people who didn’t even know me, but one thing I’ve learned from this experience is I have to  

FORGIVE ALL THOSE PEOPLE WHO HAVE HURT ME

FORGIVE, for me to reach my dreams. FORGIVE, for me to boost my confidence. FORGIVE, for me to move on and continue living life. FORGIVE, for me to have a healthy life. FORGIVE, for me to relieve stress. FORGIVE, in order for me to be happy. FORGIVE, for me to wipe away my bitterness in life. FORGIVE, for me to open up my door again and accept those people who did immoral things to me.

FORGIVENESS will set you free, will set us free.

// TEENAGE PREGNANCY//

                This issue is common nowadays to our teenage generation. I don’t understand why numbers of teenage moms are increasing each year. I felt sad for the result. =( I am not writing this because I’m against this issue, I am also not writing this because I am on their side, I am writing this because I also became a teenage mom, I just wanted to state my opinion and share my experience to those teenage girls who are passionately in love with their man and to those teenagers who are planning to be a mom early, to realize what is the value of LIFE.

 Having a baby is the happiest and greatest feeling in my entire life. It is a wonderful gift that God has given me. Love is very passionate and intimate when I was at my teenage years. Love will conquer all. Love is just head over heels, all of these are compliment to love. But this is just a LOVE for others not a LOVE for yourself nor for myself right? Elders keep on reminding me till I reach my puberty that I have to love myself first before loving others and that I should always use my brain not my heart. But then what? I did not take the advice seriously and I also did not put it in my life. I followed my heart that I thought was right but it’s not. I thought that we will be together forever but it’s not. All that I thought is just a dream, only a dream that I am thanking because it is now destroyed. I have waked up to the reality that the father of my son has so many flaws and was not ready financially and emotionally. I was totally blinded by love. Being a single mom is hard especially when you are still studying. Good thing I have my mom and my sister with me who loved me and accepted me despite of my mistake.  I am not discouraging all young parents, but I am just stating that some relationships do fail in a long run but some are happy ending.

My maturity brought me to a positive attitude. So for all those young single moms and young parents out there, our child is our strength, remember our responsibility to them, and always use our mistake to make a right decision.

 And for those teenagers who are madly in love with their partner, just please be careful and think of your future. Consider the feelings of your parents; consider their hardships in bringing you up in this world before committing mistakes. Hear them.

ADVANCE HAPPY MOTHER’S DAY!

// april//

I am teary eyed right now, I wanted to cry but what’s the sense of crying? Am really sad right now and I want to throw my phone and I wanted to go to a place where I can’t think of him for just a day or better if years. I am really regretting not just I’m mad at him right now but I really do regret. Yes I love him with all my heart but half of me tells me that this relationship is not right, not yet the right time. haaaayyy :( 

// Frustrations//

    I am so Frustrated right now. I am so desperate. I’ve been longing for my graduation and still no progress. This is a shit! Already exerting much effort for it but still I failed. So pissed right now and I don’t know what to do. It keeps on bothering me, my mom, this fucking thesis, a job, my diploma, my son who will be studying this coming june. It sucks! really. It kills me!!!! I don’t want to wait anymore. I wanted to cry but if I cry would it change? definitely NO. I have to think of a remedy to my fucking problem. It’s hard for me to fix these all shits all by myself. FUCK THIS LIFE